Merciful

Me at 40

Dear Me At 40,

I always dread you...still do. My dreams have not come true, maybe because I don't put my whole heart and effort towards them.

There are times when I feel I have NOTHING...like now...But there were times when I felt I have EVERYTHING...and think that life and Allah has always been nice and answered by prayers.

Now...all I want is to be happy in my own special way...Just accept me as I am because I am happy with the path I chose.  I appreciate life as it is..

Sentuh dan Bela Anjing Tak Haram

i love dogs too...and all other 4 legged creatures

Sejak azali (apa kebendanya maksud 'azali' akupun tak tau) aku memang tak suka bila orang mengutuk gambar orang Islam memegang anjing atau babi.  Seolah2 Islam itu membenci anjing, babi...padahal Islam menyuruh kita berbaik2 sesama manusia dan haiwan juga.  I might be shallow about the whole Islamic thing but I remember clearly what I read in buku Agama masa sekolah menengah dulu memang clearly stated kita BOLEH PEGANG ANJING DAN BABI tetapi selepas pegang, samaklah anggota badan yang kita yang kena tu.  Tu je.  Sapa pulak yang keluar fatwa nampak anjing, babi kena baling batu, kena bunuh atau kita automatik jadi orang kafir bila pegang anjing?  haha. Kelakarlah korang ni.  Aku sokong komen yang aku jumpa kat blog Beautiful Nara ni.

Walaupun aku pernah kena kejar anjing tapi aku taklah benci haiwan ni.  Aku pun ada kemahuan nak pegang anjing poodle macam Nanu tu he he..honestly. Maybe one day aku pegi mintak izin kat my chinese neighbour belai2 poodle dia.  Dah pegang atau belai2 tu, kita samak la tangan kita.  Takyah susah2 nak cari tanah sampai kena gali kebun bunga depan rumah, kalau korang tinggal kondo lagilah susah nak cari tanahkan?  Sabun Taharah kan ada.  Ye, Islam itu memang agama sepanjang zaman.

Mungkin next entry aku letak gambar aku peluk anjing..tapi..tapi...nak ke anjing tu peluk aku?

The Secret of Adulthood

Untuk anak2 mama,

This one is for all of you...watch, memorise and practice it

THE SECRET

Future

Dear Future,


Thank you for only existing in my mind.
You are a lot less scary when I realised you are just make-believe.
See you when I see you.

Ugly photos of me

Dear Ugly Photos of Me,


Thank you for reminding me of how bad my skin was and how big my ass in that skinny jeans.  You motivates me when I'm on the cross-trainer and restraints me from reaching for that nasi lemak with fried egg!

New Radicals - You Get What You Give

I grew up with this track...always turn my good mood when listening this

If I Die Young-The Band Perry-LYRICS! :)

My food log #10th day

I'm worried.  Last week of fasting month I went to gym and weigh myself...it was 58kg!! Blamed it on the Nasi Kerabu I had 2 times a week, my delicious homecook food (yup, i was very rajin cooking during the fasting month) and for sleeping after Sahur.  I had skipped the gym during that month, been spending time in kitchen preparing for buka meals.

Today is my 10th day on Juice & Vege Detox & Diet.  Trying every tips on this diet I read in the net. Forbid myself from rice (which is the hardest part), bread, sugar and jeruk & asam which was my cravings.

Day 1 till Day 3

Only had pineapple + papaya + celery + lime juice to get me through the whole day.  Put everything in the blender and drink the juice immediately.  That's all.  Spent 1 solid hour at gym.  Surprisingly, I didn't feel hungry at all.

Day 4

Weighed myself at gym. To my surprise..I lost 2 kg. It motivated me and I smiled during the whole workout that day.  I felt good and light.  I actually could feel my skin is glowing and soft :)

Day 5 till Day 9

Sticked to the regime but sometimes when I get too hungry I had clear soup with fresh green veges.

Day 10 (today 14/9)

Had papaya+orange+guave juice.  Body feels light, refreshed and stomach feels good.  I DON'T FEEL HUNGRY at all.  Trying to keep myself busy and not to think of food.   I think if I got really hungry this afternoon, I'll have that clear soup and add fresh vege on top.

Evening, usually at 4 or 5pm I'll hit the gym.

continue tomorrow...

FB oh FB

Minggu lepas mama buka FB.  Nowadays jarang dah kat sana sebab ramai sangat yang hipokrit. Tulis berapi-api mengkritik orang tapi bila dorang ni kena kat diri sendiri tau plak dia naik hangin.  


Yang kelakarnya ada kawan sekolah mama post kat FB gambar dia pegi open house yang dianjurkan oleh kawan sekolah dia jugak.  Yang kelakarnya dia post gambar dia pakai jilbab tutup muka tu dan tuan rumah punya lubang hidung hahaha!!!  Dia kata gambar2 tu anak dia yang kecik ambik pakai hp dia.  Nasiblah aku tak pegi kat open house tu...eh bukan taknak pergi tapi aku tak dijemputpun.  Anyway, lagipun kalau dijemputpun mama bukannya suka pergi open house pun.  Sekadar datang salam, ucap 'maaf zahir batin' kat tuan rumah yang bukan datang dari hati, makan, buat2 senyum dengan orang sekeliling dan bertanya kabar yang tak seikhlas mana tu....haha...not me.  Lebih baik duduk rumah siram bunga.


Banyak yang kita dapat tahu mengenai seseorang hanya dengan melihat cara seseorang itu berFB.  Ada orang kata jangan tag gambar yang mendedahkan aurat kat fb so orang yang bercakap begitu taglah gambar dia berjilbab (tutup muka setengah, nampak mata je).  Dari kefahaman aku selalunya orang yang macam tu selalunya perempuan2 jelita yang amat sangat sampaikan lelaki tengok muka dia terus timbul ghairah. Tapi kawan ni taklah secantik Fazura dan Fasha.  Jauh panggang dari api...tapi apahal nak tutup2 muka tu?  Anyway, mama rasa mama tau kenapa dia pakai camtu...takyah citer sini...i think deep in her heart dia tahu kenapa. Jangan dia fikir dia buat tu kerana Allah cukup lah sebab dalam Islam tak suruhpun tutup muka tu kecuali kalau kau cantik giler. 


Apa agaknya rasa tuanrumah tu yang gambar lubang hidungnya di tag kat fb.  Kok ye pun nak tag gambar, fikir2 perasaan dia.   Taglah gambar kawan2 kita yang dalam posisi menarik, cantik dan bukannya gambar yang menyebabkan orang nampak lubang hidung dia.  Walaupun, dia tak komen apa2 kat gambar tu, tapi mestilah dia malu sebab gambar tu membuatkan orang gelakkan dia...


alahai...